No, I get that... to be honest I didn't really find anyone particularly attractive until university. Looking back, I had crushes, but they were only for men - usually older than me, for that matter - and I just... at the time I just thought of it as an admiration thing or something. They weren't girls so I couldn't like them, except I didn't like girls at all. Plus I was shy in general, let alone about that, so... yeah, I understand what you mean.