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'Cause Descole's a Creative Genius

[Descole walks into a room with a huge grand piano. It seems no one is around, and as he cannot find the door to the outside to the building he doesn't remember waltzing into, he decides to kill some time and play the piano. While doing so, playing a pianissimo noise level, he begins lightly singing along in a French tune, figuring he'd hear the door open, if some one was, in fact, there.]

[Or would he?]

Dirait, dirait on, dirait on.....

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[Descole looks at her in shock a moment and curls his knees up to his chest. He remembers his brother walking in after his stepfather beat him. Simon would cry for him, not knowing what to do. And Descole could only sit and watch.]

[But this time was different. He was looking after himself. Or herself. Either way, he was comforting some one with her own problems. Seeing her cry the same way he would when he was alone, made him tear up.]

[No, he would remain strong.]

I-It's okay...I'm sorry...d-don't cry. You're gonna make me cry.

[He moved closer to her and placed his hand on her should gently, trying not to startle her.]

[She flinches away at the touch, but she tries to muffle the next sob against her knees, pulls her arms tighter around her legs and tries to hide her face behind them.]

I'm so sorry. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry--

[It's just like a mantra, the words don't even sound like words in her head. All she can register is that she doesn't want him to cry, she doesn't want to be the one who does that to him. Like she was the one who made Layton do what he did to her. Because it had to be her, didn't it? Layton was Layton, he never would have decided to do something like that if she hadn't been such an awful person. It must have been against his whole gentlemanly thing, mustn't it? She'd done that. It'd been her fault, she'd pushed him into it. She'd done everything, she'd fucked with him with her plans and she'd fucked with him literally, and she'd been the one person awful enough that he'd snapped.

And now she's going to make her double cry, and right now that feels like an even worse mistake. Because she's awful, and he shouldn't care, should he? Nobody else ever has. He shouldn't care, but he does, and she's awful enough that she's going to make him cry, even though he's the one person who cares about her. Trying to bite back another sob, Descole resorts to biting down on her arm, shaking as she tries to muffle the sound. Once it passes, she lifts her head just slightly, though she keeps her eye clamped shut and doesn't look at him.]

Double. Please-- make it stop, double...

[Trying to calm her down he sighs worried. What can he do? He wants to make it stop for her, but what can he do?]

[Impulsively, he grabs her hand and starts singing quietly and gently.]

La t'aime du narciesse e'sausse. Dirait dirait on, dirait on, dirait on...

[The grip on her hand makes Descole go rigid, but she forces herself not to pull away. It takes enough concentration just to keep herself still like that, just to stop herself from screaming, that she's almost not able to remember everything right now. Her mind is screaming to pull away from the touch, to run away and hide until her double gives up and leaves her alone, but at least ignoring that and telling herself over and over that she can trust him means that she's not actually thinking about the memories that prompted this whole thing.

Eventually, she starts to relax, shifting closer inch by inch. She practically collapses against her double once she's close enough, holding onto his hand for dear life and bawling into his chest. She doesn't even care right now that she's embarrassing herself. Once she's calmed down she'll probably be mortified, but right now she can't even register that. All she knows is that everything hurts, that she's scared, just like she always is, and that she's not cried like this since it happened. She's cried, but she hasn't cried properly, she hasn't cried it out with no care for who could see her, because up until now she's never felt safe enough to let down her guard like that. To trust someone else to look after her while she gives into it.]

Oh god, double. Please. Don't go. Stay here, okay? I need you.

[As Descole keeps singing in french, and holding her as affectionately but gentle as he can, he remembers his past. He doesn't remember though, when the last time it was that he cried about his stepfather. Oh so bad he wanted to cry in someone's arms without being judged, but he can't help but judge himself in the process. Crying wouldn't help him, because he never let it.]

[Finishing off his song, he began to stroke her hair, and run his fingers through it, like a certain someone he knew would do. He hoped that would help.]

I'm not going anywhere. We're both stuck remember? And besides, to leave myself like this, double, wouldn't help either of us, would it?

And we're still gonna be stuck.

[The sober did kick in, but not all the way, obviously.]

[Managing to relax enough that she's just breathing raggedly and only letting out the occasional small sob, Descole tries to curl herself into a ball against her double again. She lets out a great, shuddering yawn after a few moments, eye sliding shut.]

Mmmph... I'm sorry about this, double. That was... oh god, you must think I'm such an idiot. M'sorry.

But-- thank you for staying. Like that. I mean... I know you can't leave this place but you could have left me and-- ...just... thank you for not doing that.

[Descole smiles and nods.]

No problem. Don't you worry. I'd never leave you like that.

I know how it gets. It gets unbearable. The weight of it...gets unbearable. I've always been that way too. I just...I just never let it out...like that.

I-I... I've never let it out like that before, either. I was always... too scared to.

I guess it's having you here. Or the alcohol.

Pfft. It's probably both.

[He began running his fingers through his hair.]

Someone I love does this for me when I'm upset. They touch my hair. It usually works. Is it too scary for you, or is it working?

Mmn... it's okay. I can cope with it. It's nice.

[Someone that he loves... Descole curls up a little tighter against him, reaching up to scrub her arm over her eye. She doesn't even remember what loving someone else feels like, any more.]

...you're lucky, double.

[Descole makes a sarcastic noise.]

Oh am I? What makes you say that?

[He continues stroking her hair and starts to hum.]

Because... 'cause you said that someone that you love does this for you. I don't... I don't even remember how that feels. If I ever did love someone, it was during the time that I don't remember.

I don't know if I even could love someone, I'm so bad at everything else involved people...

Hm, but it's not the same. It's like...someone who loves me...but even if I love them, I can't love them properly...

Does that make sense?

[He continues stroking her hair missing the person who loves him. At least he knew he could feel. That was something he wasn't sure about for a while.]

You're going to be just fine...

[More fine than me. Please, if you're not, I don't know who will, he thinks.]

Well... at least you have someone like that... even if you don't... do it properly? I can't really explain it. But... you have someone close to you. I don't... don't even know how to let someone close like that...

[She trails off, humming a little to herself. It's kind of difficult to stay awake properly, with him stroking her hair like that.]

[Descole nods at her words and laughs.]

I know what you mean. You have me.

[While stroking her hair, he begins to sing again, this time, a light tune of la's and such. Maybe he's soothing her too much, but oh well.]

Mmm... m'gonna fall asleep, double...

[It's been so long since she slept soundly, but... she thinks she could, like this. With him here to look after her.]

I'll be here when you wake up.

[What he doesn't want to tell her is he's way too tired to stay awake. Perhaps he'll let her sleep soundly and do the same thing.]

...y'promise?

[She tightens her grip on him as she says it. She intends to make sure of it, no matter what he says.]

Only if you do.

[His eyes close as he starts playing with the ends on her hair. He didn't realize how tired he was.]

Mmmn... I wouldn't leave, double...

Hmm me neither.

[And like that, he falls asleep, holding her and still drunk.]

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